It's been a long time since I last cried.
all this time I had been keeping it inside.
So, no one would know. I hate getting my
friends to worry about me.
This afternoon suddenly cracked under the pressure.
My mother scolded me like crap, finally can't stand it
anymore, I'm already feeling very stressful and yet
she still had to scold me.
After crying for like 5 minutes I guess...
kinda broke down in my room. After crying
I kind of felt relieved because it was like
I'm letting everything out.
I can't remember when is the last time I cried.
Maybe it's because I've never cried in a long time.
even If I cried it may only be a few drops of tears.
Oh well, I guess I have to suck it up and move on.
That's life right ? Moving on and stop dwelling over
the past is what I'm trying to do now.
Sometimes I think I'm too stupid to live in this
complicated world, I can never get mad at someone
for over a day. I kept reminding myself I should be
angry at that someone but whenever I listen to
a few songs and watch a few movies, I forget about
everything. Besides, I trust others too easily,
I always trust other people's opinion without thinking it through.
Haha, maybe I'm too dumb to live in this complicated world.
BYE BYE PEEPS !
just a short update.
Song of the week : Break Even - The Script
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.
Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love
while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even)
You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break, no it don't
break, no it don't break even no.
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces,
(One still in love
while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even)
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, It don't break even, no
