Feeling better.

HI EARTHLINGS!

thought i do keep you guys updated.

Finally Feeling a bit better.

But I'm still feeling sad and pain.

Haha proves that she really meant a lot to me.

I've fallen down for so long.

It's funny because it almost made me forgot

who I am.

Oh well. Time to get this little bit of pain away.

Feeling relieved that this is going to end.

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Song of the week:

New Year - Parachute

I'm sick of cleaning up the mess you left behind
What a way to start the new year
On my hands and knees cleaning up the dirt and grime
What a way to start the new year

I'm sick of holding both ends of the tightrope
Cause when you fall all that's left is old high hopes for me
Stretched thin to the end trying to keep it all in
What a way to start the new year

Won't you say that it's alright?
Won't you tell me it's okay?

Because there's 364 more days
I might be smiling but you'll never even hear me say
That I like it in the shadows
Counting down to zero just to start again
Oh what a way to start the new year

Don't get me wrong, I hate this holiday
What a way to start the new year
On my hands and knees, choosing what I have to say
What a way to start the new year
I never realized it could mean so much
Just to go to bed later when we have to get up all the same,
And we scream and clap for the end of what was and what we've become

Won't you say that it's alright?
Won't you tell me it's okay?

Because we have 364 more days
I might be smiling but you�ll never even hear me say
That I like it in the shadows
Counting down to zero just to start again
Oh what a way to start the new year

Was it really that bad?
And could it be better?
Well, I don't know, but with you I still have hope
That this could be my year
364 more days, 1 million chances left to find you and to see your face
Making light out of the shadows, finally get to zero
Maybe we'll both say
364 more days, 1 million chances left to find you and to see your face
Making light out of the shadows, finally get to zero
Maybe we'll both say
What a way to start the new year

I'm not crazy =)

'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me



=S



That's rite! I'm not crazy. =(




Feeling better.
I think I'm starting to get a hold of myself.
Mixed ROJAK feeling.





Malaysia lost to China. =(
CHEER UP MALAYSIA!
it's not meant to be.




I thought Wong Choong Hann Played well.
but to Koo Kien Keat, I'm dissapointed. *sigh sigh.







All day staring at the ceiling making friends with shadow on my wall
Love the starting part mann. Emo shit.







I'm useless. haha

Song of the moment

mess i made - Parachute

Should've kissed you there
I should've held your face
I should've watched those eyes
Instead of run in place
I should've called you out
I should've said your name
I should've turned around
I should've looked again

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

Should've held my ground
I could've been redeemed
For every second chance
That changed its mind on me
I should've spoken up
I should've proudly claimed
That oh my head's to blame
For all my heart's mistakes

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

And it's you, and it's you
And it's you, and it's you
And it's falling down, as you walk away
And it's on me now, as you go

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

And it's falling down, as you walk away
And it's on me now, as you go

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away




















bye. cheehong

Hate myself

This is few days ago. Forgot to post.


=S





Well.
Watched Malaysia lost to Japan
Dissapointing.





I've been thinking of you all day.
Can't sleep for few days. It's 12.30 now
Drinking some Henessy XO secretly of course.
My mom would kill me if she find out.




So?

SHHHHHHHHH!






Loving someone is easy but letting go is hard.
Haha Should i laugh? or should i cry?





Wish someone would save me from this mess
I'm stuck in. Haha But that't not possible because


Only you could save me and you don't even like me.
I would love some punch in the face though.
Everyone must have lined up rite now.








Here's some song.
Listening to Parachute rite now.
they have some awesome emo songs. -.-

Words meet Heartbeat - Parachute

Well I go house to house and knock on every door,
I take down all the walls and tear up every floor,
Just to figure out, oh what we're fighting for
And all I can do,
Is sit and let the air speak for you

Cause when words meet heartbeats
Baby C'mon
You know it's not even fair
And I'm first round, knocked down (baby) the floor
You know I'm already there
And the sun sets high, and the moon is low
Oh, Cause when words meet heartbeats
Baby you'll know

Well there's silence now
There's nothing more to gain
And it isn't right if I can't run away...
Because it kills the moon
When there's nothing left to say
And all I can do,
Is sit and let the air speak for you...

Cause when words meet heartbeats
Baby C'mon
You know it's not even fair
And I'm first round, knocked down (baby) the floor
You know I'm already there
And the sun sets high, and the moon is low
Oh, Cause when words meet heartbeats


I'm not too tired, I'm not too tired to know what you're doing
And I'm not too tired, I'm not too tired to sing
And I'm not too tired, I'm not too tired to know what you're doing with me

Cause when words meet heartbeats
Baby C'mon
You know it's not even fair
And I'm first round, knocked down (baby) the floor
You know I'm already there
And the sun sets high, and the moon is low
Oh,Cause when words meet heartbeats
Oh when words meet heartbeats
Oh when words meet heartbeats
Oh when words meet heartbeats
Baby you'll know

Empty.

Feel so empty rite now.

Yesterday was Hari Sukan had lots of fun

with the guys.

*sigh sigh

Promised myself this is going to end fast but it isn't

Back to topic. Biru got fourth overall.

that's good. It means we

improved.

Today is mother's day!

So happy mother's day mom! Love you.

Went to some vegetarian restaurant and ate.

They Have Vegetarian burger! -.-

You name it they have it.

Ohh ya. I lied on the middle of road

and climbed the stairs at the lorong going into the tayar shop.

So we had a crazy fun yesterday.

=S

Mixed feeling.

Time to go just a short update.

nothing to do that's why i kept blogging.

Kinda miss her.

but letting go earlier is probably better.

Cheehong out.

Emo Songs.

Pain - Jimmy eat world

I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.

Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]
It's a lie. A kiss with open eyes
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Nevermind these are hurried times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.

I never thought I'd walk away from you.
I did.
But it's a false sense of accomplishment.
Every time I quit

Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.
It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]

I can't let it bother me.

[Guitar Solo]

It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]

Takes my pain
Takes my pain
Takes my pain
Takes my pain away

Hold on - Good Charlotte

This world

This world is cold

But you don't

You don't have to go

You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care

Your mother's gone and your father hits you

This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do

And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days

You say they're way too long

And your nights

You can't sleep at all

Hold on

And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to know more

And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do

And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer

Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on

What are you looking for?

What are you waiting for?

Do you know what you're doing to me?

Go ahead...What are you waiting for?

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer

Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Hold on.

Forever - Paparoach

In the brightest hour of my darkest day
I realized what is wrong with me
Can't get over you. can't get through to you
It's been a helter-skelter romance from the start
Take these memories that are Haunting me
Of a paper man cut into shreds by his own pair of scissors
He'll never forgive her...he'll never forgive her...

Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever

Sitting by a fire on a lonely night
Hanging over from another good time
With another girl... little dirty girl
You should listen to this story of a life
You're my heroine-in this moment I'm lonely fulfilling my darkest dreams
All these drugs all these women
I'm never forgiven... this broken heart of mine

Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever,
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever

One last kiss,
before I go
Dry your tears,
it is time to let you go

One last kiss (one last kiss)
Before I go (before I go)
Dry your tears (dry your tears)
It is Time to let you go

Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever

One last kiss (one last kiss)
Before I go (before I go)
Dry your tears (dry your tears)
It is time to let you go

One last kiss,
Before I go,
Dry your tears,
it is time to let you go,
One last kiss

Getting It Together.

I've been complaining
to everyone that for these past few weeks
My schedule are like intense.

-.-

Monday go there do that.
Tuesday go there practice
Wednesday tuition.

etc etc

BLAH BLAH BLAH.





I'm exhausted
but that's not the only thing that is making me down.
There's you. awkward


don't know what to do with you.
but nevermind it will all end after these few days.
Hahahaha.




I'm tired and I have no energy left.
Exam is creeping up in the corner.
With the constant nagging of my dearly beloved,

mother


I have no choice but to
PULL UP MY SOCKS ( Cedric taught us that)


one last thing,






HAPPY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY
MY KAWAII AND AWESOME MOM AND DAD! =)
I know you guys love me and i love you too.





I love you guys.=)



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Here's a song and a quote. Feeling empty =S

Collide - Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. -Anon

Cheehong say Goodbye to this sad world.